DVD, ~1 hour with 30–45 min discussion included
At age 13 Est. deals with a two-fold trauma. The father of an infant she is in charge of tells her to sleep away from the child in another part of the house. He uses this arrangement to cross boundaries and abuse her in the night. That same night tragedy strikes and the child mysteriously dies. Est. blames herself. Her instinct had been to stay with the child as usual but her will was overridden by the father’s insistence about a different sleeping arrangement which he later manipulated to abuse her. This resulted in a complexity of overcoupling between her feelings of blame, shame, anger, boundary violation, betrayal, and compassion for the mother, as well as deep grief for the loss of the child.